i am the voice inside your head . . . and i control you
i am the lover in your bed . . . and i control you
i am the sex that you provide . . . and i control you
i am the hate you try to hide . . . and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct

i speak religion’s message clear . . . and i control you
i am denial guilt and fear . . . and i control you
i am the prayers of the naive . . . and i control you
i am the lie that you believe . . . and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct

i am the needle in your vein . . . and i control you
i am the high you can’t sustain . . . and i control you
i am the pusher i’m a whore . . . and i control you
i am the need in you for more . . . and i control you

i am the bullet in the gun . . . and i control you
i am the truth from which you run . . . and i control you
i am the silencing machine . . . and i control you
i am the end of all your dreams . . . and i control you
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up
mr. self destruct

Mr Self Destruct – The Downward Spiral (Nine Inch Nails)

Control that all elusive (illusive) mechanism by which we wish to surrender our lives to. And who is it that really controls us? Do we even have control, a control that we may subscribe to? Is the fabric of this reality within the control of our senses or does the fabric of reality control the senses we perceive with? Laughably we may proclaim that control is easily within our means and who can argue that we aren’t in control. Surely our lives are completely within our control and at any given moment we can choose the direction in which we exercise control. Is this just illusion? Who controls you?

Who can fully subscribe to the notion that they are indelibly in control, that their thoughts and actions are in keeping with control? And if we are in control what is it that we control? If at the base we are merely atoms buzzing in a form that we call human do we control this atomic substrate or is the atomic substrate controlling us? Is consciousness a separate entity to the busying of sub atomic particles swarming together as a cohesive unit or is consciousness or the thing we lay claim to consciousness a by product of the interaction of seemingly separate particles connecting or sparking with each other? Who controls you?

To make matters even more complex, we have a missing piece to the particle puzzle. What gives these particles a reality to matter? Higgs Boson may explain the question but the question of control is still unanswerable. Perhaps all we have is the illusion that control is something we have. Could we even survive if we did not possess a reality that we are in control? Would it serve our interests if what we perceived as the mind was in essence non existent, that it was in reality just atoms swirling in some ether creating an illusion of something that really is nothing. The nothingness acting in a universal drama so that the ether of nothingness could entertain itself perhaps. Is the unit of nothingness masquerading as atomic matter what people call spirit or is it consciousness that defines spirit? I’d have to subscribe to the idea that what they mean is this energy field of strong and weak forces binding nuclei and photons, protons, quarks and electrons and numerous other bits and pieces and at the lowest common denominator, higgs field and boson, creating the illusion of matter; that is spirit.

Maybe consciousness is just a modernized term for the free will that God purportedly gave us and that the higgs field is the spirit. Now who said science and religion couldn’t coexist? In a religious sense then control is definitely within the means of our free will and that there exists not some uniform higgs field but a splitting between a moral and good field and a lower and evil field that we can choose to embody thus determining whether we are enlightened into the white light or shadowed into the dark matter of eternal night.

Who controls you?