Happy New Year! Today marks the passing of the first working day for the year and it didn’t get off to a good start. No siree! Another night tossing and turning not being able to sleep. I’m somewhat frazzled now but hopefully tonight will cure me of insomnia, although  I have no real reason to believe it’ll be any different tonight considering it is dreadfully hot here in ol’ Sydney town. In fact this year is proving to be difficult to get enough sleep. For some reason I just can’t get enough. The only good sleep was the last week of 2008 and then bang the new year came and out went sleep and in with my mind in the grip of mania that won’t give me wink until the morn. Well I can probably look forward to another tiring year if it is going to be this same hyper jabbery of restlessness. Oh well if I don’t make some lifestyle changes then can I reasonably expect the Sand Man to grace me with his magic dust?

Apart from that my head is up to its same old tricks, doing the same miles it has travelled countless times, as soon as the same old routine begins it jumps into gear with the tired worries that have no business entering into another year. Well I’m trying some REBT in defence and it is something I can use as armour against the thought processes that are hard-wired into the  fabric of my brain. The trick is not giving the beast an inch cause he’ll take a mile if I allow it. It has become such a bore, listening to the same anxieties that I can’t control so why put up with nonsense and why not just STOP THOUGHT! Do I need to spend my free time worrying about things that aren’t happening right now and that are only figments of my imagination? Imaginings that aren’t real, and only present because I create them so I feel bad and for no other reason than to muse the beast that feeds off the lowly sub terrestrial fungi that has festered for way too long unchecked.

Enough! Time to end the tape and put a new one into the cassette player. There! My unintentional New Year’s resolution. To change the tape.